Thursday, December 30, 2004
Rogue is at row 45...which is deceptive because you repeat rows 33-38 FIVE times for my size! I continue to be thrilled with this sweater...and dare I say, I might actually finish the damn thing! Wow....that would be sumpin' wouldn't it?? By the way I was going to show you the color...but the label does not match what's on the web at Cascade and I don't see anything that really matches it! The label says Color 9460, and on the web 9461 looks close....but with sort of a soft yellow and gray heather strand/flecks. I love it!
I am lusting after a Ribby Cardi from Chicknits. I have no intention WHATSOEVER of joining the knit-a-long as, much like Norma, this seems to be the kiss of death for a project for me. Shapley Tank is a prime example..... So....I am going to see if the largest size Ribby will actually *fit* me and go from there.
Thought I might start a 100 things list....after all, everyone seems to be doing it...so why not?
1. I live in Bend, Oregon. Bend was a logging/mill town until the timber industry died here. It survived due to it's proximity to Mt. Bachelor, great lakes, and other outdoorsy-type opportunities. It is a Brewery Town now too, boasting five brew pubs which is a lot considering it's size!
Monday, December 27, 2004
Charming picture, eh?
I was positively relieved to come to work this a.m. That says quite a lot as well.
I am in the repeat section of the body of Rogue…there have been a few mishaps, but all operator error mishaps, and I am still completely thrilled with the pattern and the resulting sweater. I haven’t ripped it, though some may think I should. The cable patterns don’t exactly…er, match. Somewhere along the line, I got off by one row, on one side. Oh well. I doubt anyone will be looking at both sides of me at once!
Hope everyone had a wondrous holiday….and that we all survive until the demons, er…sweet cherubs, make it back to school.
Tuesday, December 21, 2004
I am at row 21 and lovin' this pattern! Just enough cable to keep it interesting, just enough stockinette to go quickly. The instructions are step-by-step and clearly written. I am hoping more patterns of this style arrive from Girl From Auntie...What a great job!
Hoping to post before Christmas, but....If life interferes...Have a great holiday!
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Did you see the Rogue Norma knit for her daughter? Well...it's wonderful. Then, Norma had to go on and on about how great the pattern was....and that was all it took to push me over the edge into Rogue frenzy. Bought the pattern, ordered the yarn I wanted. I've tried a swatch on #5 needles. Got 9 stitches to the inch. Only need 4.5 stitches per inch. Now...most of you would say, "so, go up to #10s, obviously".
Umm....well, yeah you could do it that way I guess. I just thought it would be more fun to make another gauge swatch on size 8 needles to see if it would make 4.5 spi.
Guess what? Didn't work. At that point, I said "Duh! Lisa, you are a moron." In my defense, I have been sleeping very little. Like, going to bed at 11 pm and waking up at 3:45 am unable to go back to sleep. Sleep deprivation does not a quick thinker make.
More later. I think. If I can stay awake...
Thursday, December 02, 2004
To cure the mittenitis, I put Nancy Bush's Folk Mittens (highly recommended by Queen Harlot) on hold at the library and started mittens out of Opal self-patterning sock yarn on size 1's. Now, this is a saaaaaaad comparison to the magic Stephanie works with her Latvian and Estonian mittens, but, well, it was all I was up to at this point in December!
To ease the aching need for a Sophie-just-like-Norma-made, I have been scoping out the Cascade 220 in my stash...lots of it really, but not enough in any one color for a Sophie, though I am considering striping it.....
The Chocolate craving has gone unsatisfied, 'cept for a fat-free, no-whip white mocha daily from the drive-through, YES drive-through!!, Starbucks. I know, some of you despise Starbucks. What can I say....I love it! and having a drive through less than a mile from the office...well, you know...how can I NOT have Starbucks???
The Cuzzin' Tom piece of the Wanna Be Puzzle is still unsatisfied. Guess I'll have to live vicariously through Ryan at Mossy Cottage....
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
I've mentioned having a crazy mom...and that hit a note of recognition from a few readers. My mom has (at the least) schizo-affective disorder and at the most, a few other charming mental illnesses to boot. The best way to describe schizo-affective disorder is this:
If I were to go to my mother's residence to give her a ride to a doctor appointment and be tragically struck down by a big ol' truck as I tried to get in my car and lay bleeding and maimed in the road....this would be my mother's response:
"Lisa! You're hurt! ....... Now how am I going to get to my doctor's appointment????"
The most characteristic traits of schizo-affective disorder are a complete lack of compassion and total self absorption. Now, while mothers the world over are accused of this kind of behavior daily...to actually have a mother with this kind of mental illness can be pretty devastating to a child.
A past therapist suggested that I raised myself with the aid of television. I scoffed at the time....but as I continued therapy and began to really look at the way I think, I realized she was pretty damn close to the mark.
I saw June Cleaver, The Brady family and The Partridge Family as "normal." Their TV lives of always happy, white-picket-fence-ness were what I perceived as the way it should be. Not only that, but I believed if I tried hard enough....I could become them.
Needless to say...that's a pretty lofty goal...to attain something that isn't even real!!
Hey, tho, it saved my life when I was 5 years old and couldn't adjust to constant insanity.
Perfectionism, depression, and a low self esteem were the results of that distorted thinking, however, and here I am at 40 years of age saying to myself "I am not June Cleaver...and hell, I don't even WANT to be June Cleaver!" whenever I have those moments of not being able to let go of how things "should" be.
So, on this Thanksgiving Eve, I am thankful for several things: All the usuals (family, friends, blah blah blah), as well as television...it gave me something to hold on to when I could have easily gone into much more devastating avenues to hang on to myself, a good therapist...God bless you David...., and the internet, which has given me 4 or 5 nice women who "get" what I'm talking about.
Happy Turkey Day, y'all.
Monday, November 22, 2004
I have to take care of a big THANK YOU to Ms Bron!
The last few weeks....when I did NOT feel good...lovely blog friends came through for me in a way that touched me so deeply! First, Marie of Knitti-Me sent me the coolest stitch markers! Then, a Surprise from Bron!
I got the slip indicating I had a package. When retrieved, it was discovered it was a package from New Mexico...from Bron! It contained a heavenly bag of potporri...some rose-scented hand balm, and a bag knit by Bron herself! I was so pleased, I can not express myself adequately!
Life went cra-zee immediately after and I realized this weekend that I hadn't said a proper "thank you" to Bron, so Bron dear, Thank You! Your kindness just touched me deeply. Thank you for being my cyber buddy!!
And, as if I haven't been spoiled enough, my SPIII pal came through in a BIG way! Wowza! I got (and I hope I remember everything!)
- A dozen way-cool German chocolate eggs...they are hollow and have toys inside! My kids thought they had died and gone to heaven!
- A Christmas tin that is also a music box...filled with tasty German cookie/cakey kinda treats....mmmmmm.
- A package of different flavored mini chocolate bars...praline, marzipan....those are MINE! I share with NO ONE!
- Two gorgeous skeins of Regia sock yarn...one blues and browns and one mixed blues...made my heart race, I tell ya what!
- Some of the softest Lana Grossa meriono wool I have ever touched in a silver/smokey blue and darker blue...I haven't decided what it will become, but it will be for ME! I'm being selfish....me, me, me!!!!
- A pair of bamboo knitting needles, yay bamboo!
- Really cute stitch Christmas markers she made for me herself, crafty thing!
- A tiny soapstone (?) container with lid...I actually love miniature boxes and have collected a few so this fit right in!
- A set of Christmas Angel ornaments...Thank you for adding to my new collection!
- The Vogue Quick Reference book, if that can't bail me out of the knitting predicaments I get into, I don't know what can!
- Weekend Knitting...now this is sort of a funny thing! You see, I bought WK when it first came out. Then, in a fit of cleaning (I know, miracle but it does happen) I decided I would never knit anything out of there and that I would take it to Powell's and trade it in. No sooner did I do it, than I swear I was seeing all sorts of things people knit out of it and wishing I hadn't traded it! But...I had bought it once and damn it, I refused to buy it again! Now...I have it again! Now if that isn't amazing I don't know what is! Thank you SPIII.!!!!
- Lastly, she even put in a goodie for Emily, the Knit Knack (? I think that's right) set. Now, in view of all that has happened, she may wonder what I would do with it...and that leads me to News of My Personal Life...
Emily and I are working on having an Alternative Arrangement. I capitalize this because it is a Big Deal to me.
I was raised in a family that dictated that you got married, stayed married 60 years, and if you made a bad choice....well...too bad for you. You made your bed, you lay on it. I have consistently tried to fit "traditional" ways of being into my life, whether they fit or not.
I have realized that Emily and I just can not live together, at least right now. I love her...she is my best friend and so much more. She loves me, and we are willing to try to "think outside the box" of when you are in relationship, you obviously live together. So...we are working on seeing what it feels like to be together, without living together.
So, Emily got her kit and was very touched and sends her thanks!
That's all f-f-folks...for today. Y'all rock...thanks for being my friends.
Friday, November 19, 2004
Boy Am I Lucky!!! :)
12:39...I have oh....2.5 minutes...so:
Lovely, LOVELY merino wool, 4 balls of a soft smoky blue color, 2 balls in darker blue. Yummy, simply yummy!!!
Bamboo needles...I love bamboo!
Christmas Stitch markers....way cool!
Two skeins Regia sock yarn....one in blues and one in blues/brown mix... Hey! Now this is for ME!!! No one else gets socks from this yarn, darn it!
There's more....but I have to go! Sigh....I wish, so wish, you could see it all!!!!! It was amazing. Each item was individually wrapped in X-mas paper...My children gathered around and watched me open them one by one...and I felt SPECIAL!
I can't tell you how much I needed that! More later!!! Lisa
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
I think we are here for this: To Learn Something.
Some of us have many things to learn. Some have a couple. Perhaps a very few only have one Big Thing to learn.
Some of the things I have realized I have learned (or are still working on learning):
There are no mistakes. My perfectionism and feelings of failure are manufactured in my own mind...not sent to "punish" me by God..The Universe...whatever you choose to call it. My knitting is such a good example of this. As I mentioned briefly yesterday, I finished Shedir. It is lovely...soft and cushy out of Blue Sky Alpaca. Damn near perfect. Except....one prominent ladder at the top. Originally intended as a gift...I immediately went into "I can't give this to someone...it's not perfect!!!" and stuffed it away. However, I am learning. That little voice in my head says..."give it." Will I? I have no clue. Talk to me in a week. Or a month. Maybe.
The Really Big Thing I Am Learning: Let It Unfold. This means, stop running ahead trying to fix everything so you won't be uncomfortable later. It is also about not being in control of everything all the time.
Someone said to me once... "you always have to be in control, don't you?" and I was SO ANNOYED! I thought..."I am NOT controlling!! How could she say that!!!!"
I have realized that it is not so much that I want to control others....I want to know what is going to happen...because I can't stand being left in a state of suspense. It has to do with childhood and having a crazy mom and never knowing what was going to happen next. This is probably translated best in my knitting as the desire for a pattern to follow...and for the pattern to be correct. It makes me totally insane when the pattern does not make sense....in all aspects of life!
See....knitting can be tied to everything. Even the Mysteries of the Universe....
Challenge: What are you here to learn?
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
I am knitting however, so it can't be too bad. Finished "Shedir". Very pleased overall, though I am annoyed as all hell that when I switched to DPNs I ended up with a really prominent ladder in one spot. It's all I can see when I look at it...so I'm putting it away for awhile.
I received a lovely gift from Bron...more about it tomorrow...after I have gotton over myself a bit more.
Y'all are awesome, those who read and mail me...thank you for being in my life.
Monday, November 08, 2004
Second.....to condense a long, convoluted story:
My partner and I of four years are separating. I believe this is exactly what needs to happen for both of us...I have no idea if it's for a month or a year or forever. Lot's o' feelings going on over that...to put it mildly. A lovely, kind woman who is my very best friend.
Started the "Shedir" cabled chemo cap from the Knitty surprise bonus or whatever the hell they call it. Using Blue Sky Alpaca in a yummy oatmeal color. Bron, you won't believe it...but I am actually knitting from a chart! Yup...miracles never cease. However, like Faina....I need to be ALONE to knit it!
Speaking of Faina...her solitary confinement is almost over. I believe she has learned her lesson and that row 54 will be much more cooperative when I pick her up again. Sometimes, you just have to give your knitting a little discipline.
Thursday, November 04, 2004
I keep wondering how this could have happened.
FOs and hats...I actually have finished a couple of things...yes, I do know how frightening that is, actually.
Finished the baby seed stitch hat from Mindful Knitting...out of Blue Sky Organic Cotton which is Yummy by the way.
Finished a grown up hat for Drama Queen #2, the 16yo girl, out of Cascase Quatro in this Ann Norling pattern.
And actually, (now Ryan don't get too excited), pulled out the remaining sock to be knit that I started in June. Had to rip it back quite a bit cause I couldn't figure out where the hell I was....
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
On a "I'm-cranky-cause-I'm-sick" note (gee, aren't you glad you tuned it?)....
I should not have done the SPIII. I knew it before I started, but I got sucked in. The person for whom I am SPIII-ing has apparently felt I have not been attentive enough. Yes, life has interfered and I have not done some of the things I wanted to do...but I also didn't realize I would be considered non-compliant for not checking in on a daily basis. Sigh. So...now I feel like a flake and I really haven't meant to be or thought that I was for that matter.
My SPIII has been pretty quiet and I haven't gotten anything yet, but ya know what? It's okay! I know firsthand just how life will interrupt and I figure I'll get something sooner or later and if not, well...oh well.
I'm just saying, I should have followed my gut instinct and not participated. Sigh again.
End of unscheduled crankiness.
I did get a package in the mail last week....I had *ahem* forgot to tell Crafter's Choice I didn't want them to send me Ann Budd's new sweater book....Convenient, eh? I lusted after it in Barnes and Noble and there it was, snug in my mail box for me. I really love the format...where she gives basic dimensions and you can add all the nice touches you want or just have the basic design. I also love the idea that each pattern gives several gauges for different yarns. I really hate substituting yarn in patterns, mostly because I'm a coward and don't have enough confidence in my knitting skills to make my own decisions sometimes. Who am I kidding, that actually applies to my life....not having enough confidence do make my own decisions.
Now, lest we fall into a maudlin discussion of Lisa's character faults....I bid you a fond farewell from wet, rainy Central Oregon. It truly rarely rains much here. Just looking at the gray, windy outside makes me want to curl up with a good book, tea and cookies under a warm blanket.
So, is anyone reading anything good? I just finished this, which was pure brain candy and I am plowing through this....which is not. I like it, I just have to *think* when I read it.
Monday, October 18, 2004
Been working on Faina...and I find her to be exasperating! Row 54 and I have gone round and round...sigh. I am starting the first repeat of the pattern, which of course starts with row 54...the row from hell in my limited experience. Keep coming up one stitch short...and it's driving me insane. I put it down and didn't touch it again this weekend because as Ryan said...I didn't want to deal with fussiness! I'll gear up on it again this week.
Meanwhile, I have been cranking out dishclothes for a bazaar, the proceeds of which will be donated to the local Community Center. I'm enjoying the mindlessness of whipping them out. Price? Geez...that one is so hard for me? So...anyone out there with an idea on price for dishclothes? Knit out of Lion Brand Kitchen Cotton, $3.99 a ball, get 3 out of each ball. They are about 5 x 5, bias knit with a little eyelet edging. Takes me 2 hours (with the one million interruptions that happen at my house) to knit it up. Again, this is not for me...whatever $$ comes out of them will go to the Community Center. That said, I want the darn things to sell, now wait for a philanthropist (? is that right...geez I need more coffee) who is willing to pay a lot just to support the Center. So, if you have any suggestions... I'd be grateful!
I hooked up with an old love over the weekend....
Ha, that sounds way more exciting than reality...the "old love" is polymer clay. My sweetie recognizes my need for this continuing love affair tho, so "it's all good," as my teens say.
Since I have been in emotional upheaval (perpetually it seems)...suddenly my creativity is flourishing and some way cool jewelry is now sitting on my kitchen table. Some of it I will keep, some I may sell at the bazaar (for me...probably with a donation of part of profit to the Community Center too...) and I am struggling with price there too. I have recognized I probably need to consult some friends I trust to look at it and go with their pricing.
My entire life, I have been unable to price my art reasonably. I always have felt it isn't worth anything...so I priced it to bottom price. This resulted in my selling it all...very quickly...but no $$...basically would break even. Or, worse it wouldn't sell because I priced it so low, people thought it wasn't worth anything. Ever done that? You later do that classic slap-to-the-forhead thing...
Self esteem. Spell it with me now, S-E-L-F E-S-T-E-E-M...... "I will ask a reasonable price for my artwork."
I so wish I could show you pics, because honestly, this is the best work I've ever done. Good enough for me to say to my art-wise friends, "okay, you price it and I won't say 'that's too much'."
Friday, October 08, 2004
- It's Friday, tho I do have to work this weekend.
- The weather is crisp-fall-perfect.
- I've had a lot of coffee and damn, everything's better when you've had a lot of coffee, eh?
- I've re-read Harlot's Letter to Rhinebeck...and AGAIN it made me laugh even though I believe I have read it four times now. Woman is a genius, absolute genius. I want to move to Canada and be her best friend. Okay, that sounds a little stalkerish, but...it's true.
- I have lovely blog friends....which is reason enough to feel good, take my word. Matter of fact...go check out these loverly ladies....(in no particular order, of course)...
If I missed someone, it's not personal...I'm just, you know, perimenopausal and can't remember my own phone number sometimes....
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
The package was from Norma, of Now Norma Knits... I so wish I could show a pic of the contents...(ARGH!!!! STUPID TECHNOLOGY!!!)..ahem...but I can't at the moment. I can show you one thing tho, it was this, Nicky Epstein's Christmas Stocking Book!!! I didn't even know it was out there....and now it's mine!! Woo hooo, thank you Norma!! Just think....I can make ONE SOCK....and no one will tease me!! This is heaven!
Also included: A lovely handmade angel ornament, made from sweet peachy-colored tulle...AND (I know!! THREE things....wow!!) a set of spreaders (you know, for cheese or dip or whatever...) with Christmas-style handles...... am I lucky or what??
Now....another subject.... I wanted to post about Norma's RAOK before I forged ahead. It really did help me hang on another day or two to my sanity, I hope you know that Norma.
Warning...this is not happy-go-lucky...gee, life is grand stuff. If you don't wanna read about hard stuff, I don't blame you and you are free to move on. For some, it is "too much information," I get that. Life is just sometimes messy......and I have spent a lot of my life pretending everything was fine...when it wasn't. That is what my family/role models did, and so that is what I did.
"What, you say there's a pink elephant in the room?? No, there's no elephant....everything is fine."
Well, sometimes life isn't fine, sometimes is sad and scary and overwhelming. Sometimes it's our own *stuff*, sometimes our childrens, our spouses, or other people near and dear.
Tomorrow is my 20th wedding anniversary...were I still with my ex-husband, I imagine I would be celebrating it. It will always be the anniversary, whether we were together or not, you know?
I spent 14 years married to an alcoholic. I had no preparation for this...there was some major mental illness and dysfunction in my family growing up...but alcohol was verboten. So, I never learned to recognize alcohol abuse for what it was or how to respond when someone I cared about had a problem. The duration of my marriage, I was convinced it was my fault Mike drank. I went into the marriage quickly, with a lack of maturity (couldn't tell me that then!!), and with a background of being raised to believe my mother's mental illness was my fault...and my responsibility to contain and perform damage control when things went wrong. Since I immediately went to "this is all my fault!!", it was pretty easy for Mike to say "oh....hey, YEAH...this IS all your fault!!!" I handed him a "get out of jail free" card on a golden platter...the card must have read something like this:
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Faina is at row 73!! I am now to the beginning of the chevrons...which Ryan declared are quite the delight...I had a picture taken and yes I'm working on getting it posted. I'm trying, friends, I'm trying!
There are angels amongst us.....Monday, the only mail was a slip saying I had a package waiting.
Norma, of Now Norma Knits fame, had sent me a very special package. I want to linger over it, giving you the full effect of my pleasure in her time and generosity, so you'll have to wait till work slows to a slight rush instead of a thundering whirlwind. Soon as things cool off here, I will post all about it.....Norma is "da bomb", go on over and say hi today.
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Faina's Scarf is now at row 50!! Yes, yes, that sounds exciting until you realize she's a healthy 460-odd rows.....
I've realized I really know myself much better than I like to admit. This is because I just had to test my own limits...my own boundaries. I knew full well that I could not successfully knit this detailed pattern during any distraction. I vowed to knit it only when alone...no children...no dog....no sweetie to distract me with their very being.
My lack of multitasking talent was glaringly obvious last night. I thought I could slip one by the ol' knitting goddesses...Surely I could knit a bit on Faina with only one child in the house? After all, it was DQ3 who is 10 and was completely immersed in Wonder Woman (obstensively selected from Netflix for the children...but who am I kidding? I had such the crush on WW when I watched it at that age....).
The third time I had to rip row 24...I began to silently beg the laughing knit goddesses for mercy. Of course, it might have been difficult for them to hear my supplication past the whispered blue streak....
*&%%)....8@@!... What honey?? No, I'm not talking to you sweetie....)83#*&%, Hmm? No, not you, nevermind me, watch the show ....$$@ ...... !$#^^.... I said NEVER MIND!! "
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
SPIII asked if I like knitting books....ahem....that would be affirmative! I LOVE knitting books. Don't always actually *make* anything out of them, but they inspire me.
Have you been over to the Harlot's lately? This women is so funny...I check in on her site daily and I'm never disappointed. Her knitting rocks as well!! Go on over. I'll wait.
I am gearing up for a new project...."What?!?!" you say..." What about all the projects you already have going??"
Yeah. What about 'em?
Ms. Ryan over at Mossy Cottage Knits invited me to a 'Faina Together'. I've been lusting after Faina for over a year and now I'm almost ready to go. Planning on this yarn..(shade 024) yummy, eh? By the way...if you've missed out on Mizz Ryan's Commune posts...you have to go read them, really. The comments as well....all of them! I'm too lazy to wait for you on that one...there's a lot of material.
Have a lovely day...don't ask me about pictures, I'm working on it and not getting anywhere!
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Take the What High SchoolStereotype Are You? quiz.
If the link above doesn't work, try it here. Ahhh yes....high school....blech.
I found this over at Banjo Girl's site....you know, Banjo Girl.... Rachel's friend...who is incredibly funny and an excellent writer. I've been checking out her blog on a daily basis ever since Rachel posted the link....
Monday, September 13, 2004
Lisa, did you read all of the directions?
To which I had to honestly reply...."uh....well........no.....", after which there was a Homer Simpson-like "Doh!" and slap to my forehead.
I cast off on DQ#1's poncho Saturday morning. I had determined that it was long enough. I began to cast off....and after 25 stitches or so this thought crossed my mind: "Hmmm. This is curling pretty bad. Huh. Well, it will probably uncurl when I add fringe." Mind you, this is plain ol' stockinette. A brief fancy of actually getting up off my rear and going to the bedroom to find the pattern occured, but was quickly squashed....you know, 'cause I was sitting 15 steps away and all....and it was Saturday...and well, yeah.
I continued casting off...yup. Rolled right smartly. Course, I didn't want it to roll. But, I decided to fringe anyway. That would do it, surely?
No, it did not do it. After applying 20 or so fringes...which promptly curled right up into the roll, I got off my heinie in search of the pattern. Whadya know...yer sposed to do four rows of garter at the end.....you know, so it won't roll. Ryan's cyber voice again rang in my mind..."did you read all of the directions??" What can I say....I'm a twit.
So, I dutifully picked up the stitches...and knit four rows of garter. Guess what? It doesn't roll know. "Doh!"
I have actually had a picture taken of a knitting project and as soon as it is mailed to me, will try posting it. Unfortunately, since I am a clandestine blogger at work, I can't download "stuff" to help me just post pics the "regular" way...so I will set up a Yahoo photo page with links to it. Best I can do at this point.....providing of course the picture comes out in the first place and my friend figures out how to send it to me......
Friday, September 10, 2004
A confession....I love looking at Knitty...but most of it is just *not me*.
I am not a wild and crazy gal. I know, I know, you're shocked. "But....you're a belly dancer! you're a lesbian!....you must be wild and crazy!"
Nope. Sorry to disappoint. I'm actually pretty boring. Well, I think so anyway. I admire people who can dance to their own drumming...women especially. You wanna do something wild and crazy? I'll be there for you...I'll support you to the end. I'll wave a banner, yell real loud, tell everyone...but I am who I am. I am a "backstage" kinda gal. I'm a helper...a supporter...I don't enjoy front and center stage. I've done it...I just don't like it.
Call attention to myself? Ugh. Blogging, now this is somewhat different. If you come here, you must chose to do so. I also don't have to actually look at you, which is just how I like it. Not that you aren't all gorgeous I'm sure....
It's the same with the book "Weekend Knitting." It is the hot thing here right now...and nothing much in it is "me" either.
Lastly, I found this at "One More Row and Anther Latte" and it was too funny not to mention.
Thursday, September 09, 2004
I have to share this little gem with someone. Our local paper, The Bulletin, runs a weekly ‘Religion’ page. This week, there was a headline that caught my attention, something to the effect of "Christians Pray for GOP".
There was a quote from a woman in Georgia which said: "Well, Jesus isn’t here…so I’m voting for the next best thing", referring to George W. Bush.
Oh. My. God. Bush is the next best thing to Jesus? I have to tell you, this struck me as so funny, that I laughed till I thought I would wet myself.
I didn't knit yesterday. I didn't knit Wednesday. This is a Sign. If I'm not knitting, I'm depressed. This isn't "feel sorry for me....I'm depressed....waaaaa." I have dealt (or not dealt) with depression all of my life. I'm not ready for **"Hairy Carrie", I'm just not up to par. I'm taking my Paxil...eating well...getting almost enough sleep. This, too, will pass.
**"Hairy Carrie" is from a book I just read, "Triads" by Poppy Brite and Christa Faust. It just makes me laugh...see, I can laugh at *something*! And I feel I should say, ahem, I doubt this book is for everyone. If you're queer you might enjoy it...it is an interesting blend of three story lines. It is also quite homoerotically explicit.
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
What I've been reading:
"Smoke and Shadows"
I am a huge fan of Ms. Huff’s vampire series featuring "Henry Fitzroy." Vampires? You say? Yup, vampires. Every once in awhile, I just crave a good vampire story. This, "Smoke and Shadows", is the latest installment. If, like me, you occasionally indulge in a little night walker reading….this series is great.
"The Language of Power"
This one jumped off the new books shelf at the library and right into my book bag. It is the second in a series, and while I haven’t read the first, I intend to! Fun, intelligent, a great escape from children who are much too tweaked out over school starting….
So, other than read this Labor Day weekend, I did manage to get a few more rows of Drama Queen Poncho #1 knit. I *think* one more ball of yarn and I will be able to cast off and start fringing. Big project for me…trying to keep up my motivation for finishing it. Anyone who knows me is well aware that I am a far better starter than finisher!
Lastly, answers to some "extra" SPIII questions sent by my Secret Pal!!! Woo hoo!! I’m enjoying hearing from you SP….it’s just plain fun, and we all need more of that.
22. What is your favorite animated character or a favorite animal/bird?
Do I have to stick to one?? Animated Character would most likely be Piglet. Favorite bird is the chickadee.
23. What is your favorite holiday? 24. Is there anything that you collect?
This is a long and roundabout answer…..I love holidays, especially Christmas. I had a Christmas ornament collection that dated back to childhood, mostly contributed to by my favorite Aunt, Aunt Jeanne. Jeanne always sent at least one Christmas ornament a year. A blown glass heart from Russia when she toured with a chorale group she belonged to…a stunning fairy ornament….probably 50 or more ornaments. I also started collecting a ceramic village Christmas scene with buildings, a gazebo, etc. As well, I had "done" the "Christmas Around the World" party circuit for several years and collected a LOT of that! Decorating the house was a full time job for the weeks before Christmas. Live boughs with lights woven throughout both indoors and out…I just lived Christmas from the day after Thanksgiving to December 26.
Then, I left my husband. After 14 years, 4 children…his alcoholism was completely unchecked and I had come to the life-altering realization that one of the reasons I was so miserable was that I was lesbian and denying who I was inside. I left with the children and pretty much just our clothes and that was it.
My Christmas collection? He took most of it to the dump and gave the rest to the girlfriend he took up with less than 90 days after I left.
For the first 5 years after I left Mike, I did as little with Christmas as possible. It was devastating to me….remembering all the things I had saved and cherished, but no longer have. Last year, I began to feel that old familiar Christmas pleasure and began collecting again. This year, I am already starting my Christmas high and thinking about ornaments and decorations. A Christmas ornament of some kind would be absolutely cherished.
Friday, September 03, 2004
1. Are you a yarn snob (do you prefer high-end/natural fibers)? Do you avoid Red Heart and Lion Brand? Or is it all the same to you?
What I prefer and what I can afford are two different things! Actually, I don’t really consider myself a yarn snob. I like to support my LYS and I like nice yarn. However, I am happy to use acrylic when the occasion fits, like making something for one of the Drama Queens that would need to be washed frequently and wear like iron. That said, I don’t particularly care for Red Heart. It feels *gross*. :-D
2. Do you spin? Crochet?
No on the spinning, tho it makes me drool to think of it! Frankly, I can’t imagine where I would find the time. I am capable of crochet, but just don’t care for it much – either the process or the finished product.
3. Do you have any allergies? (smoke, pets, fibers, perfume, etc.)
I am allergic to some cats and have reactions to strong perfume and no longer wear any myself. Seems as soon as I find one I like it begins to make my eyes water and nose run within a few days.
4. How long have you been knitting?
About 18 months.
5. Do you have an Amazon or other online wish list?
6. What's your favorite scent? (for candles, bath products etc.)
7. Do you have a sweet tooth?
8. What other crafts or Do-It-Yourself things do you like to do?
Polymer clay, sewing, quilting, painting, collage, calligraphy, not that I have had a lot of time for any of those since I learned to knit. Knittings portability is a huge bonus for me.
9. What kind of music do you like? Can your computer/stereo play MP3s? (if you want to make her a CD)
No to the MP3 thing. I do have CD/tape capability. I love music, with the exception of Country/Country & Western. Blech.
10. What's your favorite color? Or--do you have a color family/season/palette you prefer?
That’s a hard one… blues, teals, greens….raspberry, purple…peaches and golds….I guess if we had to nail down one it would be teal.
11. What is your family situation? Do you have any pets?
Partnered, quite happily by the way, to Emily for almost 4 years. Drama Queens in residence: Kayla 16, Michelle 10, and Michael 8. Mary is not in residence, but has retained her Drama Queen status. One dog, Kita, a purebred black lab. One guinea pig, Smore.
12. What are your life dreams? (really stretching it here, I know)
uh…..talk to me another day. This one just boggles my mind today.
13. What is/are your favorite yarn/s to knit with?
Welllll….I love soft, colorful yarn. I love alpaca, but I really like wool too. Oh, and cotton is nice….who can pick for pity’s sake?14. What fibers do you absolutely *not* like?
Haven’t found one yet!
15 What is/are your current knitting obsession/s?
Ponchos, lace, always socks….
16. What is/are your favorite item/s to knit?
Scarves, they are quick, fun and you don’t need 15 balls of yarn to make one!
17. What are you knitting right now?
Ponchos… a mohair scarf…hats…
18. What do you think about ponchos? (this is really a curiosity question for us)
See above…I have ponchoitis!
19. Do you prefer straight or circular needles?
I prefer circs, but use straight needles too.
20. How did you learn to knit?
Taught myself from a Lion Brand kit, books, internet….
21. How old is your oldest UFO?
Well, I’ve been knitting for about 18 months, so I would say….16 months. J Likely to never be finished, either.
Monday, August 30, 2004
It went as well as I could have asked for. My costume stayed up, on and intact….which let me tell you, is a relief. The crowd was fun and friendly. The music was awesome, and even though it didn’t really seem like the same songs I had requested (live music versus recorded), I felt as comfortable as I could have been. Some dance friends came along and it was great to know I had friendly faces in the crowd, even tho I couldn’t see ‘em with out my glasses!
Awesome. All I have to say is awesome. We have a pathetic (I’m sorry, but it’s true!) little pretense of a Saturday Market here….so going to a “real” one was sooo goooood. And of course, for those who don’t know, Eugene is a liberal town. It is a university town (University of Oregon) and is often called the “liberal capital of Oregon.” For a couple of lesbians from the sticks, it was just heaven. People of all races, sizes, “alternative” folks…..people dressed weird and funky and it’s all okay, because, hey, it’s Eugene! Interestingly, I can say I did not see a SINGLE Bush/Cheney bumpersticker, poster, or yard sign. Zip, nada, zilch. THAT is how liberal Eugene is. Loved it. Not that I am an “out there” kinda gal. Frankly, I’m pretty darn conservative!! But you know, it just *feels* good to be somewhere where “different” is okay, in fact, “different” is normal…good… appreciated. Emily and I chose some hand-thrown mugs for coffee…2 for $28. Lovely colors, but most of all, they “fit” our hands. We have quite the obsession with coffee mugs that “feel right”.
Soft Horizons Fibre:
This yarn store is housed in a Victorian home surrounded by a lush green garden. Four rooms on the lower level contain yarn, spinning wheels, dyes, basket weaving materials, books, needles etc.
What I liked: Yarn was arranged by type, not color. Drives me crazy to run from the blues to the greens back to the blues to see if there is enough of what I want in stock in the right color. Lots of choices, everything from Brown Sheep to Trendsetter and lots of yarns I’ve only seen in magazines.
What I didn’t like: Many of the yarns are not priced, except by a list hanging somewhere in the vicinity. I dislike this very much. Tedious and time consuming to figure out the price. To be fair, some shelves were priced on the shelf itself, but most were not. Very crowded, hard to maneuver.
Final analysis: Didn’t buy anything. Nothing just leapt out and said “Me! Me!” Would I stop there again? Hmmm, if I had $$ in my pocket I might. Would I go out of my way? No.
I’m off on vacation in 1.5 hours. No posts till next Monday I suspect, but HOPEFULLY will have some sort of pictures! Where am I going? Glad you asked! The Inn at Otter Crest....two nights free thanks to a wonderful, kind friend. Tell you allllll about it when I get back!
Friday, August 27, 2004
My friend Nan will be bringing her digital camera and I plan on begging for pics for the blog…might even have knitting content then!
Wish me luck…
Tomorrow, I’m ditching the workshop and Emily and I (along with Kathleen, fellow dancer/knitter) will be hitting Eugene’s Saturday Market, Harlequin Beads, and Soft Horizon Fibre! Look for all the details next week!
Monday, August 23, 2004
This weekend, I settled down with some knitting and watched the Olympics. I noticed one event where the stands were not half empty:
Beach volleyball…USA versus Checkoslavakia to be precise. Have a guess as to why this was so? I do…..
Now, I have never been a sporty gal. I envy women who are athletic and good at games. Therefore, I enjoyed the match…except for one thing…
Too much boo-tay.
The Americans were a great team…agile, quick…but I saw way more of their heinies than planned or desired. What is up with that? Why was it necessary to wear bikini-esque bottoms that did not cover their rears? Added to the lack of coverage, they spent an amazing amount of time waiting….bent at the waist….with aforementioned heinies captured on camera for the world to analyze.
Now, I am not a prude. Furthermore, I happen appreciate a beautiful woman’s……assets.
However, there is a time and a place and personally, I don’t think their clothing was appropriate.
Yarn snobs will be horrified, I’m sure, but I love a sale…and 40% off clearance, well, that’s my idea of a sale! Fred Meyer’s had Lion Brand Woolease on clearance for $1.77…then an extra 40% off that! So, I picked up enough for ponchos for DQ#1 and DQ#2. $20 for both…and they can be machine washed and dried. Is that a deal or what?
Friday, August 20, 2004
This will be arriving on my doorstep soon. What will I do with it? I have no clue, but obviously, the yarn is so gorgeous that it will look good no matter what!
I got it from Jenny at Bees-Knees Knitting on Ebay. Marie, over at Knitti-Me clued me in to this great seller…by the way, have you seen her scarves?? Wowza!
- Row 35 on my first Booga Bag. I know, I know…..late to the party. Everyone who was "anyone" has already done this right? Well, what can I say, I’m a late bloomer!
- Almost half through my fourth skein of Manos for the Pashmina/Stole Thing (now its official name). Thinking I am going to need to add on another for fringe…it’s just not going to be quite long enough without it.
- Stalled on the Kidsilk Haze feather and fan scarf…don’t ask.
- Chomping at the bit to start the DQ1, DQ2, and DQ3 ponchos, as well as my own poncho….Hey, did I tell you I have ponchoitis or what?
- Checked Knit One Felt Too out from the library….in love with the felted mittens…but, you know, the problem with this is you’re supposed to make two…and I have a short attention span!
So….have I mentioned I belly dance? Yup. I got bit by the belly dance bug in the early 80’s.
My step-mother ran a craft store in La Pine, Oregon. One day, a lady came in a bought a large selection of beads. My step-mother asked what she was making and the lady replied that she was a belly dancer and was making a new costume. Thoroughly intrigued, my step-mom asked if she could get enough students for a class, would she teach them? They needed one more for the class….so I got dragged along. At first, it was a big joke…but by the end of the first class I was hooked.
Fast forward 20 years later….I teach two classes, a beginner and an intermediate/advanced class and started my own Troupe "Sahara’s Dream" this year.
I’ve been invited to perform in Eugene August 27, for a show with live music with Americanistan. I’m excited, nervous, and ……unprepared! My costume isn’t done…which surprises no one who knows me!
I’ll keep you posted on that one…if I fall on my face or make it through okay. Might even post a picture…cringe. I am not a Barbie doll. Let’s leave it to that.
Lastly, today we have to put our dog, Fawn, to sleep. She has become aggressive and bitten neighborhood children one too many times. People think "oh my, aggressive dog!" and picture a snarling, frothing-at-the-mouth beast….but that’s not Fawn. She is loving and sweet to her family….but something just seems to snap with she is faced with small children or other small dogs. We searched for a no-kill shelter as far as Utah and none of the appropriate ones have an opening. It seems the only option left, and it is breaking everyone’s heart in our house. I firmly believe her spirit will not end today, but be released to join the Universe and perhaps continue on to learn more about living in the world with other beings.
If you have a dog or kitty…give them an extra love today in honor of Fawn.
**DQs are my lovely children, the Drama Queens. DQ1, Mary, 18 and just now living on her own, DQ2, Kayla, 16 next week, DQ3, Michelle, 10 going on 13…., and DQ4, Michael, my 8-year-old son.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Much has been written about how short-lived this recent craze will be...But I find I just don't care. I want one...and I've finally found the pattern that makes my heart beat fast...it's here.
I found it on this blog...where on the sidebar there is a veritable plethora of free poncho patterns!
I think I have enough of a lovely alpaca/wool mix in a lovely shade of dark mossy green for the Aran Poncho. Somewhat hard to tell as the label is, I believe, written in Turkish and my foreign language skills end at "Hasta!" I have 10 50 gram skeins in what appears to be DK weight...Enough, I think...any thoughts? I could always put a different colored fringe if I had to....
Also picked this pattern up at Gossamer awhile back, it's the woman's poncho at the bottom. Jasper knit it, but added her own Jasper-style to it using an intarsia pattern similar to Kaffe Fassett's Persian Poppies. It is to die for! Mine will be in gray with black stripes for DQ#1, Mary. I plan on making it from Imperial Stock Ranch yarn.
Monday, August 16, 2004
In that spirit, I felt it was my duty to fill my own "minimum performance standard." So I staked out my neighborhood. Perused the possibilities. Plotted. Planned. Then I went in for the kill...............
"Would you like me to teach you to knit?"
Yes.............I've brought another knitter into the fold......My sweetie, Em.
Now, teaching your Significant Other to knit has its good sides and its not-so-good sides. On the plus side we have:
- We can knit together.
- We can really share the ups, downs and in betweens of creativity, learning the craft etc.
On the "hmm-maybe-I-should-have-thought-more-about-this-before-I-did-it" side, we have:
- "What do you mean, you want to use some of my yarn?"
- I think she'll be a better knitter than I am. You should see her first few rows. I struggled through a project or two before my stitches were that uniform. *sigh*
So, there you have it. I've filled my self-imposed quota....gained a knitting companion....reconciled to the idea I'll need to share my stash....been humbled that my student is likely going to be a better knitter than I.
A few more rows on the Rowan Kidsilk Haze scarf....feather and fan on size 5 needles. Ever knit with hairy sewing thread?
Almost to the end of the third skein of Manos for a pashmina/stole type thing for myself. The air conditioning at work has a mind of its own....The Manos Pashmina has a simple cable pattern, and I plan on making it around 4.5-5' long with fringe increasing it another 6" or so. This colorway.
All the other projects....I don't want to talk about them. I'll just feel guilty! Thanks for the comments, knit friends. I've been trying to add a few more links on my sidebar, but Blogger is not cooperating today.
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
I was thinking how I could tell my sweetie "I didn't buy yarn today!!" This is an accomplishment, believe me. In fact, last night I said "I didn't buy any yarn today!" She looked at me. "I didn't buy any yarn on Ebay! I didn't buy any yarn on the internet! I didn't even buy any yarn at Gossamer!" Like a puppy who has pottied in the right place finally, I was pretty pleased with myself.
Leaving B&N, I saw this. It leapt into my hands, dragged me to the checkout stand, and then shamelessly unwrapped itself in the car before I could think, making me 5 minutes late back from lunch, no less.
Well, I can still say I didn't buy yarn today, right? Hmm. It's 1:55 p.m. Gossamer closes at 4:30....
And Now For A Little Knitting Content.....
Shall I tell you what's on the needles? Ahem....this could be embarrassing.
- Shapley Tank....I don't wanna talk about it. It's *this* close to being done. What's my problem..why haven't I finished it? I have no idea. Elsbeth Lavold Silky Wool in a lovely mossy green.
- Sweater Workshop Sweater: Started, oh..six months ago. About 6" including ribbing done. Bernat Denim Style yarn, bought for $1.50 a skein. When I picked it up and knit a few rows on it the other night, My Sweetie said "oh, I haven't seen you work on that in a long time." It was said quite nicely, mind you. I think she's trying to influence me with positive affirmations. Honey, it won't work.
- Socks: Uh, yeah. One pair for DQ#2**, one sock done and the other is at the 75% mark. Plymouth Sockotta. One pair for me, Lorna's Laces "Vera". Made it to the heel and messed up. First time using the "Simple Socks Plain and Fancy" book. Not really all that simple the first time or two around, but after that it gets easier. I think I prefer this (short row heels) to picking up along the heel flap. There are more socks started, I refuse to incriminate myself by naming more.
- Rosemarkie Vest (Starmore): From The Celtic Collection. Reputed to be an "exellent" first fair isle project according to the book. I'm 3" past the ribbing. Been sitting for months now. Like Shapley, I don't know why I'm not working on this. Rowan yarns in blue/gray/burgandy colorway.
- Baby Albert Coat (Melville): From The Knit Stitch. Red Cotton Ease. Close to done on the endless garter side-to-side knit bottom half. I got bored. I did look at it the other day tho...
- Mother-In-Law scarf: This one really is embarrassing. Yummy periwinkle Debbie Bliss Cashmerino. Cast on for it as a birthday gift....last fall. Didn't finish it in time, so I decided t give it to her for Christmas. That didn't happen. All that needs to be done? Well, thanks for asking! Uh...well... I have to fringe one end. Yes, that *is* all. I don't wanna talk about this one either.
- There's more...but I've depressed myself with this list so no more confessional for me today, ThankYouVeryMuch.....
**DQ#2: Drama Queen #2: 15-year-old girl. Need I say more?
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
- I don't have internet access at home. Yes, this means I am one of those b-a-a-a-d knitters who so lust after knitting time that they surf the net for knitblogs at work.
- I don't have a digital camera to post pictures.
- I think I'm boring....
- I am uneducated in the ways of computers, publishing, blah blah blah.
- I don't have a lot of time.
The Reason I Finally Did Jump On the Bandwagon:
- Life is short.